I find that...

I find that I've been worrying about the future more than usual... about Tammy, and college [even though I still have another year left], and my art and interests. I can't wait until Christmas, so I don't burn out before I even get to senior year.Just a little thought.+bean

Pelley gav...

Pelley gave the class a box of matches [each] to play with today... She was like, "Fill up a page with a study of the box... and if you're a *true* student you've burned all the matches out by the end of class!"I love sixth period. :3 Even though my left eye was all teary from the smoke by the end of class... but it was fun.Still plotting how to get Tammy here in nine months.+Bean

I knew i...

I knew it was you, I swear. :3Um... what was I going to write about? It seemed important at the time... D:Working on first page for Arlequino. I think if I use photo corners to keep the paper on my art table thing it'll go a lot easier...Because of Bruna's death my parents refuse to ever have pets again. Now my mom's a bit depressed about her little dwarf hamster Nanashichi [the original :3], because she knows it'll die soon [it's stayed alive longer than most do]. But I'm sure she'll be okay....What was iiiit?I think I'll just bitch about Haugrud's class then.Why the hell does he assign all these projects and not teach us a damn thing? And the computers hate me and get all fu- screwed up, and then when I do my project at home so it will actually Get Saved he gets mad. Fix teh damn computers or leave me alone, Mistah H. .____./rantage-OMFG t3h B34n

Is In Dire Need of Reference.

Weekend Randomness...
::Humming:: I think the anime club's going to be doing something related to martial arts and walking at the homecoming thing. Or something like that. I'm gonna skip, personally. .____. On Tuesday we're supposed to meet after school... I'll drop by my former math teacher's room instead, methinks, and draw her something. :3 [Casey is an ass.]
My sister has a friend over. I love it when she has friends over because she forgets she hates me.
Spoke with Mariah for a few hours. She's really quite interesting to talk to when neither of us are bitching about anything.
My dad bought Hitchiker's Guide so I can be happy. :3 [Is happy.]
Still desiring Sumomo Yumeka-sensei's works from JPQueen. I think my math grade miiight have raised to a low C, so I might be able to get them afterall... [Dun worry, Bakaneko-chan, if your mom opens Chou Ni she'll just think Uka's a girl, ne? Neeee?]
I owe Rae a picture from July. .___. So I'd better work on that after I finish the THREE FOOKIN' PROJECTS I need to do.
::Do dee doo::
Read some fun yaoi. Stayed up late doing nothing, as usual. Drew some yaoi. Dreamt about yaoi [which wasn't as fun as it was disturbing, I swear Lockheart and Malfoy is NOT a good couple... but there was some SiriRem so I didn't wake up shrieking or anything... o____. ].
Oohhhh I dreamed a dream as time can tell and though I woke up feeling well I realized it was reality and quickly slipped back into a dream...
Nothing more to say. Not that there was in the first place.
...Must stop being lazy and work on school crap. Fook... Dun wanna.... D:
--BEAN
P.S. Bean Mastah, what did your mama say 'bout teh Tragic Kingdomness? :D

Rants: page 1 of [insert PI here]

Right. Instead of bugging my friend with it, I'll send this into the darkness of the internet netherworld, where it will be viewed .729 times or so.#1: [Beanmaster is very familiar with this one, as is BEIKON D:... gomen ne...] I can't draw. At all. I know I am better than a very large amount of people, but that will not get me a livable paycheck. So obviously, what I need to do is improve, ne? Except that every time I start, I realize it's hopeless and give up. Then I tell myself, 'Noes! you must keep on! It is teh dreeeeam!' And I spend three days on one picture that I am satisfied with for about two hours, and after it's been posted and I'm happy and I've shown it to my parents and been showered with praise, I fall back into my slump and said picture is torn up and burnt. Now that I've actually finished the rough draft for a manga I feel pretty good, and can only pray my mood lasts until I'm done with the final copy for my dear, deardeardear Daddy. [hugs sick father]#2: [Also very familiar] I've decided my sister hates me. She's tried to kill me twice, I kid you not, and has threatened it before, and bless my poor little mame-soul I decided that she was just being a kid and still love the dickens out of her. And not at all in a Setsuna-Sara way. More like Ed/Al without the Elricest. ::cough:: And yet, she hates me. Point: After not seeing me for five days while she was in that play [go drama kids go!], she comes home and doesn't say hello, is annoyed that Iw ant to talk to ehr, all but runs out of my room after I get all happy to tell ehr what she's been MISSING FOR FIVE DAYS and I'm left once again alone, feeling like a very angst-buckety Bean indeed, except not as angst-buckety as Cloud. ...maybe Kamui-level. .___.#3: Yes, I am a fangirl. I do not, however, consider myself a 'scary fangirl,' like my friend calls us all. [Herself included.] And I wuv Meoi, I really do, but... I am not that level anymore. .____. Arguing my points do not include "but he is WAAAY more bish because he's liek teh hott and has fangs!!1one". ...Just setting the record straight, mister red-tipped- Hot Topic-posterboy-wannabe. And I am not punk, mister, I am an art student. A-R-T. And the rips in my pants are naturally there because I'm too lazy to patch them up... but I digress.#4: My memory sucks. To the point where I can't remember what I'm talking about AS I SAY IT. [Beanmaster is also very, very, VERY familiar with this one...] So i come off as being a ditz or soemthing, I just know it, and I really just can't remember... .___./rantage for tonight so I can sleep.BEAN

Bruna. Oh my g...

Bruna. Oh my god... I got in the car yesterday after school, which was odd because I usually can't go home until later because my sister stays after, and my parents told me that Bruna, my cat, had an infection, a really bad one. They'd only found out yesterday. It was contagious, and incurable. She didn't feel anything, but her skin and hair was falling away from her body... She had to be put to sleep yesterday almost immediately. My parents brought her to the vet just in time, because she was getting to a stage where it would start to be pinful, so now okay, wherever she is. I'm still crying. I don't know how I got to sleep last night, but I woke up at three in the mroning and my little sister let me sleep with her because I couldn't stand my own bed. I didn't sleep. I'll write again when I'm a bt calmer.

It...

It was my mommy's birthday :D I got Pocky and two keychains- Hiei and KURAAAMAAAA from Yuu Yuu Hakusho... but I could only get them if I spoke to the saleswoman in japanese... she says my accent was very good. :D And my mom goes, "She's always listening to Japanese rock..." and the woman says "Ohh, like L'Arc-en-Ciel?" XD! And I mentioned GO!GO!7188 and the woman says "I think I've heard of them... two girls, yes?" And a drummer named Turkey...Oho, Bacon, Fish. XD

Watched Adv...

Watched Advent Children for the third time in three days... I'd watch it more if I had a copy, but I have to wait a bit longer so... ^__^;; I shall not complain! I am happy to get it at all! D:Can't sleep. At all. To the point where I'm like "Whoa, I can't sleep." But that's okay, I'll pretend I have to study Japanese [which I really do, because I can't rememeber any of the expressions I have to make up that test on... and I'll fail t3h chapter exam if I don't know them. :/]. ...I'm gonna go find mroe AC screenshots then...BEAN+EDITGave up on coffee. On my second can of Red Bull now. They lied; I have no wings. .___. Printing out some kanji sheets. Because I'm a loser.+Edit x2Mixing Red Bull with Coca-Cooola makes it taste almost bearable... and fizzier without burning. :D And Kanashimi wo Yasashisa ni is the MOST ANNOYING AND YET CATCHIEST SONG EVER. ._____.

Wai wai subtitle...

Wai wai subtitled AC!! XD::dies of happiness::There's no other way to express how AWESOME this is. Seriously. .______.

ADVENT CHILDREN!! *dies*

Saw Advent Children today. Can't form complete sentences. All characters = gorgeous OMG VINCENT SOOOO FREAKIN' AWESOME Made me sad because it was so very very good. ;_______; And AWESOME and EVERYONE should buy a LEGAL COPY OF THIS or I will be a sad Bean.Can't type anymore. Need to play Final Fantasy. Yes, VII. No, I have not yet finished.AUUUGH NEED MORE SCREENSHOTS @_____@+Bean

For Kuroneko-chan. Not so old poem. :D

It Was Youo8/22/o5......It was your touchOn meYour soulIn meIt was an innuendoAn intimate intimationA reality hiatusA lurid suggestionMy lifeIn youAnd yoursIn meMy hand behindA warm neckA gasp, a sighA sinful breathIt was youAnd meOne summer dayIn winter.It was falseAnd trueAnd alwaysit was you.

The funnie...

The funniest thing at school yesterday... Right, so Bacon, Bakaneko and I were in sixth period, and five minutes or so after class started we were told that the campus we were on had to be evacuated, and the other campus was under a lock-down, no exceptions. So we left the room, and one of the administrators was like "Go! Go!" And our teachers was saying, "Go left! No, the other left!... I lied, go right! Right!" So after we gout out to the senior parking lot we saw three huge fire truck and a bunch of ambulances and police cars. "Fire?" We wondered. "Escaped convicts?" [This happened once in my other school.] "I think it's a bomb threat," my teacher told us. So then we were herded into the auditorium, which hadn't been checked for bombs and was "assumed" safe, and waited for about an hour... then the principal came onstage and said "All right, here's what's happening... we found a suspicious-looking lunchbox in one of the courtyards." [Sixth period was right after one of the lunches. .___.]Here's the best part... "So far, we've found two sandwiches."The auditorium went nuts... everyone was laughing hysterically. Some students were whistling as if the school had won the lottery or something and actually decided to use it for the students' benefits. It was *so* great. And then the principal added, "We still need to X-ray a third suspicious object."We all say it's a juicebox. :D And that's what happened. I'd hate to be the kid who forgot his lunch. X3BEAN

I h...

I had the oddest dream last night. So Sunboy's family owned an art store. but it had the best supplies ever; manga paper and watercolor and inks and everything. I remember I was looking for tracing paper...
He kept showing up, and the store was always empty because whenever I came around it was closed. His mother told him to give me free stuff. :D I remember Emily H. kept hanging around the store, behind the front doors. She never came in. Anotehr Emily I once knew would come in, put on some music [beats me where it was coming from] and would leave again.
And something about a moose-hunting lodge. That didn't hunt moose, it hunted cabbage. That moved..______.

B...

Blargh. Sick-like today. Head hearts. Pondering whether to draw yaoi or to look at yaoi, but at the moment busy reading 'Bokura no Oukoku.' So yeah. :DBaaaakaaaNeeekooooo and Baaaaaacoooooooonnn I'm lonely. .___. Get home soon so you can call me! ::laugh::...I'm gonna go choke down some food. ^__^;;-BEAN

I'm gon...

I'm gonna save up some money and buy a bunch of Houseki-hime/Idea's FMA doujinshi. .____. [Note the icon] Actually, two of the three icons are from Houseki-hime's Next Restraint FMA doujin... it's so pretty! ;___; I sent Bacon the Traumerei and Scarlet on the Tile doujin... I wonder if she's read them yet?--BEAN

Aftermath

Right, finally able to choke down some food... I think I'm coming down with somethin's. ._______. And I had an odd dream featuring a presidential election, and one of my former teachers was there to make sure we didn't make too much noise... then I followed SunBoy around, he was with a girlfriend; I'd glomp him and run at first, but then the girlfriend didn't mind so I just hung out with them... he was very tall. .____.I don't like wet wallpaper.On another note, I finally read the latest out from Okane ga Nai which was fun. :D Tokikawa = @__x ...But I won't spoil anything. ^__^ I really liked it though, and Ayase went from "waiwai uuuukeeeeeeee wai gonnacrynow" to "waiwai uuuukeeeeeeeee wai not gonna cry yet"... XDAnd I still have FMA music on repeat. :3 Oh yes, espESHULly Melissa. XDNeed to draw new layout... I think I'll add wings or sumthin'.--B34N

Jumping Doujinshi Semes!

I'm vice-president of an anime club. ::blink:: I'm not really sure how this happened, seieng as I wasn't even going to join this year... well, as Severus Snape would say, "Blame the first years. And Potter." But since I don't know any Potters at school I'm blaming the freshmen. ::laugh::Well, I might as well do my best to make it interesting. We were thinking of making the theme this year be "Samurai vs. Ninja," since last year it was "Hero vs. Villain." Another idea is "Anime vs. Manga." But Sam [she's teh president and a great person that's selling me the best posters ever] says they're the same thing, and despite my attempt to say otherwise, none of the freshies- or many of the sophomores- will be convinced otherwise. ::cry:: There IS a differenc,e dammit! It's like Star Trek and Star Wars! [Only more yaoi.]Personally, i think the best theme would be "Uke vs. Seme," because the Ukes would totally win with their eeeevil plot-device-powers. :D And their huge angst-eyes, if one refers to Okane ga Nai. And I do.Ooooooooh another FMA doujin by Houseki-hime/Idea. :D Must dl. Now. And make wallpapers like the Traumerei one. [<---- my baby]On another note, I don't like cheese.+BEAN [who is not a cheesy Bean]

Hero = best ...

Hero = best movie EVER.
Watched FLCL for the first time, which is just sad since I've had the DVDs for going on two years... then decided to work on an art project so I watched some of the Cowboy bebop movie, but realized watching bounty-hunters [albeit spiffy-looking ones] wasn't the best thing to draw to, so I watched Hero again, sobbed hysterically, and ran out of yello and the unsucky red.
Which reminds me [actually, no, it doesn't; this is totallt unrelated...], I really have to read the new HOUSEKIHIME!!! FMA doujin I downloaded...
I love you Aarinfantasy. o_____o

I wa...

I was in the shower when I realized my ring was missing. I never take this ring off- it was a birthday present for my quincinera- and I was so frantic, crying in the bathroom, looking for it... when I got back into this room it was sitting in front of my monitor, which is impossible because if it had fallen off my finger it wouldn't have landed there, no way, and I didn't take it off.....Whatever happened, yay for me! :D

Homophiles and Angry Burning Witches

I really should work on Coffret... but first, I sort of have a request to make, even though all of two people read this... my dad asked me yesterday for a manga. Or, rather, to draw him one. Based loosely on a book called 'The Traveler' by [insert author here, sorry, I don't remember], the story is about families of Harlequins who protect certain powerful people [or maybe other families]. There's a vast network of them all around the world, all of them knowing each other. They dress in the classic Harlequin/Arlequin/Arecchino[or whatever it was] outfits and are highly skilled. Some of them live "normal" lives, befriending their charges without them knowing. There's a big bad, too, of course.However, in order to be able to design the characters for this, I'm going to need information on them. I know they're based on an old theatrical play- French, I think- that I can't remember, but what I most need is references, facts, etc. If anyone ever reads this and can tell me something about them, please do so! X3On to otherness... I'm kidnapping BakaNeko-chan to work on the website. Yes I am. But I'm going to need a new picture for the personal layout... ::sighs:: Better work on that first, then. Maybe something with wings.And I really need to start drawing more, I've been putting that off...+Bean

HOLY SHIT GAY PORN

Back to life, mreo or less. And I swear, as soon as people stop being sleep-deprived they get the oddest dreams... in mine, after the girl and her employer swallowed tampons to kill themselves *in my hotel room*, I decided to walk outside for awhile and found a bookstore. In it was a large wall, top to bottom, thick enough for a cashier's desk to be in front of it, which was labeled as "BOY WITH BOY" at the top.
Dude. Yaoi manga. The 18+ kind. o____o

I ran into an asian girl [maybe it was my way of incorporating Karyan?] And I said "I wish I was old enough to get those..." And she says, smiling, "You are now. I'll get them for you." I told her I didn't have any moneyon me and she says, "You can pay me back." So I ask my mom on the phone for about $40 and she's like "Sure" so I go back in, where the girl's gotten me the best seven from the shelf- err, wall. She says she'll give them to me somewhere else so we don't get into trouble [porn for minors, etc.] When we do meet up again, we talk for a while, she hands me the bag and leaves. my sister's with me and she says "Oh, she forget to get the money from you!" And the girl turned to us froma cross the street with a big smile and waved and kept going. That's where I woke up.

Yay. Free smut.

Haven't ...

Haven't been sleeping. Nothing new. Watched Resident Evil: Apocalypse again and that reminded me that I really need to work on Coffret so we can get it up when lemon-dreams goes up. And I really need to stop abusing the caffeine, I ran out of coca cola again.

New AIM name. Joy for me. Maybe this time AIm won't kill my poor computer. ;__;

More later.

Manders ...

Manders got me an Edo pin to help feed my FMA addiction. o___o
First day went okay. I don't like the people in my science class, but I'm with Sun-Boy so it's alright. ^_^
I'm still sick though, and apparently I fell asleep because it's three hours later than it was last time I looked at the clock... And Tammy finally e-mailed. In fact, I'm gonna go read it now.

+Bean

Feeling ...

Feeling rather like crap at the moment. I keep sneezing and my nose is really, really stuffed up...School begins tomorrow, and while I can't say I'm not nervous about junior year, I'm actually looking forward to some of my classes- Japanese II and, shockingly enough, my math class, for instance. Let's just hope I finish that last art project... and actually get around to reading the two books I have due tomorrow. .___.+Bean

BakaNeko made...

BakaNeko made lo-ve-ly Count Cain fanart. XD Which reminds me, I need to ask her for a favor...
On a more FMA-related note, I found some wonderful mood icons but I have absolutely no clue how to use them and that makes me sad. TT_TT Anyway I'm not on my computer.
Got my schedule for the school year on k12 Planet, or whatever the hell it is. Apparently I have English first period, Japanese is third... I really need to finish my last art project, then I can work on the questions... Beeeetsushiiiiii-chaaaann!! I have no clue what they're asking me foooor! +freaks out+
I can't believe we're juniors now. o__o That leaves me two years to pray we can get enough monies to go to SCABS together...
Hehe. Do you needs the monies? XD
I hear we don't have Wednesdays anymore, and I know for a fact that school starts at around 7:20 now. @_o I am now a rather sad Bean. Already missing my lost sleep-hours. How do they expect fangirls like us to stay up at all hours reading smutty Elricest fics AND work on the art projectsies AND get to school at SEVEN FREAKIN' TWENTY?! +sob+ That means Ihave to get up earlier... are we still doing the alarm-clock thing?
...I don't wanna go to school. .__. Oh well. Maybe I can go a year without a stalker. Though the Kuroneko-sama keychain rules.
On another note, I really need to write Tammy a few postcards.
--Bean

Updatey

Yaay... BakaNeko-chan is going to make me one of her lovely layouts ^__^ Makes me happeeee... [For some reason I'm suddenly thinking about that scanlation, umm... the one I can never remember what it's called, about the artist-boy that never talks and does't show any expression but his crush- a baseball fan- asks him out... that one. BakaNeko-chan knows the one and she's going to be wonderful enough to tell me the name, I hope. *hint hint*]

But for now, let me bitch about air conditioning. Or, rather, my dear mother's fixation with it.
It is a rather inconvenient thing;simply sitting at my computer at home[oh, how I long for thee, Faye-Faye!] I find myself bundled up in sweatshirts and blankets. In the warmest room in the house. I believe that it would not be so bad, were it not for the, erm... "fake" feeling of this air, being not a breeze but something brought into being by a machine.
Ooh. Wind machine. Must use that somewhere.
On another note, it is almost one o'clock at home, but here it is almost ten. I have gotten seven hours of sleep... Nummy.

I am teh Bean. Hajimemashite.

Blargh, first entry. Or something. I'm on vacation right now in Lake Tahoe, but before this I was in San Francisco and they have the BEST STORE EVER tehre in Japantown that even has a YAOI SECTION. o____o And FMA pins. And keychains. And a t-shirt. And Loveless. And FMA 1-15. In Japanese. TT__TT Sadly, I am not made of money... but I did buy a bunch of stuff. Like all that was mentioned above and Deleter manga paper... and ink...
I'm in lurve. X3
Anywho, it was my dad's birthday last night. [Everyone say "Happy Birthday!"] My parents really are the best. :D [Guess how I managed to afford most [read: all] of the aformentioned goodies? X3] So yeah.
Lessee... I read the sixth HP book and it made me cry. Yes, it did. It was the best-written out of the six though, due to a faster pace and not too many incidents that don't concern the plotline, but BakaNeko was right, there's a lot of romance in it as well. Ah, just read her review-type thingy. 'Tis long and well-done. May contain spoliers of some kind.
And be sure to check out our DEATHNOTE SOCK PUPPET THEATRE. It is the lovechild of Pocky and Go-Devil-Dante.
Mmm... Desunoootoooooooo...
On another not, Sushi Boat restaurants are the best! :3 You sit around a bar with a guy or two [usually Asian :D] cooking sushi, and they put the plates of sushi on boats that travel around the bar over water, hence the name. I got to try vegetable sushi with all kinds of things in it, it was very good. And made by a Mexican. o___o Here's a note: Mexicans make good sushi too.
Here's another note: There is absolutely nothing to do at 11:30 am in Lake Tahoe. But there's a fire pit and I ahve have MegaTokyo volume three. That is all that counts.